Yesterday I was in attendance at the wedding of Jill Duggar and Derick Dillard. I will not be sharing photos because there was explicit orders to not take any pictures of the wedding. So, I did not get any pictures. It was a beautiful wedding, and it was especially touching when they shared their first kiss. It wasn't the least bit awkward. In fact, it was really nice. Derick then grabbed Jill's hand, and they ran out the sanctuary! So sweet! The after party was at the Duggar home, and it was lovely. There were friends and food and happiness. My children played with the Duggar children and everyone got along and had a blast.
Today, I come back to find out that I am a fraud. Lori Alexander and her husband, who so wisely counseled me not too long ago, have claimed that I am a fake and a spoof.
First of all, it is NOT Christlike to be mean, so I will not state anything mean.
Secondly, I was called to be a wife and a mother when I was 13. Prior to that, I had a dream of wanting to be a singer/songwriter. I had already written several songs, and they really were quite good. I was home schooled. My parents discouraged my dreams, but I kept dreaming. One day, my mother pulled me aside and told me that women could not ever be truly happy away from home. If I really wanted to pursue my dream, she wouldn't stop me, but I would soon learn her words were true. My Uncle Larry loaded me up in his truck and we went to Nashville. I stayed in Nashville for two months trying to break in as a tiny songstress. Dolly Parton and Brenda Lee were my heros, and I wanted to be just like them.
After two months, there was nothing in sight. The record producers told me I was too young. One even told me to come back in ten years. I kept pushing, but there was nothing. I went to bed and cried myself to sleep.
The next morning I asked my Uncle to take me home. I tried, but failed. So he took me home, and I began my new dream of being a stay at home mother.
I met my husband Troy ten years ago. My father pushed courtship, and we obliged. We were allowed to hold hands and hug, and that was all. We had a chaperone on us at all times. I saved my first kiss for the alter, just like Derick and Jill. We were married January 25th 2005.
We had Nataleigh August 14th 2005. She was my first baby, and I was so proud of her. I loved getting to watch her walk and crawl. She was a month early so I was scared.
February 5th 2008 we had Kaileigh. Baileigh came along January 9th 2010. And Matthew came to us Christmas day of 2013.
My husband believes in raising an army for God. He wants us to raise our children to be Godly children. I want him to be happy. I was taught to submit to my husband. No, I don't necessarily LIKE the idea of my daughter being married off at 13. But my husband knows best, because he was raised to be a Man Of God. I'm just a woman. What do I know besides babies and housekeeping?